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VxPoem ID: 22438

Category: healing

Posted: June 19th. 2006 10:01:49 AM

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Think I know now, ...

by Ladykelshan
 Age Group: Adult

Think I know now, ... what it's honestly like, when someone rejects your friendliness, they take your heart, and they bend it in a weird direction, and you won't know where it actually ends up, if and when, are the two questions.....
Think I know, that I messed up, royally....Thought, it would never happen to me..HAH! I should have known BETTER! This time, in my life, I realize fully what I did wrong....and even though, I can't fix it, I can DO better.
Think I know, that I am seeing my life all over again, thru them, the new people in my new life. I wish I had "seriously" had taken the time, to see the damage that I was doing, so long ago. (but, I didn't care, a bit!)
Think I know, that separating myself, from the rest, was NOT a "welcoming" thing for me to do, to the "new" family member... I went out of my way to be a real A**Ho**! I did a fantastic job, and it must have stung, for years, and years... GOD I was GREAT!!! (But, not really) .....
Think I know, all of the things that I said, and did, and tried to do, over and over again! Thought, that I'd won, and that NOBODY was gonna "mess" me...I was "the stronger" (but, alas, I wasn't!)
Think I know, how you must have felt, I shut you out, maybe because I "thought" I was right, in thinking that you were a "bad egg"....or that I "knew" that I wouldn't like you....our person alities , clashed, and I just refused to be a nice person all of those years... I was like a sore that never got a chance to heal, a wound, that you noticed everytime you looked at me.
Think I know, just how much pain that I would inflict, and I honestly don't know how you could have put up with me! I lower my head, because I too am going thru what you did, with me! I accept the people in my life, because I honestly care about them, but, it won't take....they are just like me (well, with the acceptance of one, but, the other, I'm not so sure.... and I am sad, and rather puzzled)
I think I know, how you most likely felt...and I have to say, How very sorry, I am... I gave you no choice.... and you stayed anyhow, but, I kept the bitterness up, and you stayed longer, and I became strong , resliant, and beligerant. but, you never left... you kept right on being you!
Think I know.... because I am there, now!
 Author's Notes: By ladykelshan Written Monday June 19th, 2006
This is about the realization of my undoing....in my younger years....I have a step-dad...and at an early age, I did everything that I could to rebel....I never gave him that many chances...I "knew" that I didn't approve of him...and it has lasted for years, and years, despite my half brother and our close-knit family, and a few other happenings...
I can say realization because I have four children in a relationship that I am in, the two older ones, they are very cool and they readily accepted me, the two younger ones, well, one I am still getting to know, but, I think that she is a very caring , intelligent, fun, great person! The other, is the youngest man in the family, who is not adjusting yet to me....is totally sensitive...like I was...and I can understand, that...boy can I! This is a lesson, out in the open for me! It's rather painful to see my actions from so long ago, came smacking me upside the wazoo! OUCH! This is a poem, about me, and my learning...

Author's Location: Washington, Washington DC More Poems: Ladykelshan has posted 483 additional poems- View them? Author's Profile: To learn more about Ladykelshan - Click HERE
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