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Author: Alaysa Thane
Posted: September 16th. 2012
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I'm Alaysa Thane. I'm a freshman and things have been a little hectic for me this year. I've discovered a lot of things about myself and seen how I really want to live my life. It's been hard, because of how young I am, and some people have had a hard time dealing with the changes I'm making in my life. But I honestly don't care, because this is my life, and I'm going to live it however I feel comfortable.

The first thing I realized about myself was that I am bisexual. It was sort of a surprise to me, just because I have always thought of myself as being straight. It scared me, though, because I knew that my parents and extremely Christian friends would never accept me and see me the same way if I told them. It's been a few months, however, and I've come to terms with it. I love myself, but I never tell anyone unless they specifically ask me. It makes things a bit easier.

The second thing I realized was that I wanted to become a vegetarian. One night, I couldn't sleep and I was reading a book, and when I finished it, it just sort of came to me. It was a sort of epiphany. I realized that I love the earth, and that I would do anything to protect it and the things living on it.

The third and last thing that I realized was that I wanted to become Wiccan. I was talking to a friend of mine (she's a bit odd, but a good kind of weird) and we happened to get on the subject of Wicca. Now, then I didn't really know anything about it. I thought it was just witchcraft, and I was really interested in magick. So I went home and I researched Wicca. But wow! That day, I realized how sadly mistaken I was. There was so much more to it than I could have ever dreamt of! I became totally enraptured with researching The Craft and I couldn't stop. The more I found out, the more I wanted to know. I began typing up everything important that I could find: history, beliefs, ethics, The Wiccan Rede, rituals and rites, any and everything else I saw.

A little while ago I understood what this all meant. I believed in everything that I read about, and I thought that it made sense. I loved what I was learning and I really wanted to be a part of it. I finally found what I wanted to be, who I already was but hadn't truly embraced. I'm scared, because I live in a place where there are no other Wiccans, or Pagans, and I have no one to share my beliefs with, no one to study with. But I'm also excited, because I know that this is who I am, and I can't wait to start my journey of being Wiccan.

Some might think that I haven't nearly researched enough to know for certain, but I am certain. I'm definitely not done researching, but I can tell in my heart that this is for me. I've spent the last 4 days practically glued to the computer learning about Wicca. I've typed up a Word document 20 pages long, with almost 6, 000 words! After learning about the Goddess and God, I can't stop looking out the window with amazement at how beautiful the earth is; I wake up at night and just gaze at the moon for minutes on end. Finding a nature-revering religion that has so many ways for you to show your respect and awe for the world around you, and for the God and Goddess, has changed my life.

I was a Christian before I learned of the Craft. I believed in God, but I could never commit to reading the Bible; it just never interested me. When I prayed, it was like I was talking to myself � my words just got lost in the wind. As I said, my friends and family are all Christian, save for a few who are Jewish, so I understand that for some people it works. But it just didn't for me, and I'm glad that I've found what I really want so early in my life.

I plan on telling my parents soon, in a few weeks or so. I'm a little afraid of how my mom will act, but I'm not worried about my dad. Fortunately, one of my brothers is an open atheist, so I suppose she'll just be happy that I still believe in a god. Not sure how she'll take the being a witch part, though. . . I'll probably have to buy my own supplies for rituals and spells.

I guess what my point was for writing this was to tell teens that they�d probably figure out a lot of new things about themselves during their time in high school. And yea, it might be scary, but it's also exhilarating! Just think, you're finally starting to think for yourself, and now you're able to actually find out who you are... without your parents telling you. People are still going to try to tell you what you should believe in, but now you're able to resist it and think what you want.

You're old enough that people are beginning to listen to you. But remember that not everyone will understand; there are going to be lots of people who think that what you believe is wrong. Being a Wiccan, or Pagan or Heathen, is hard. A lot of religions believe that we worship Satan, though that's untrue, and no matter how much we try to teach them, some are not capable of listening. Many people will try to convert you to their religion, or try to hurt you by insulting you. Just know that it doesn't matter. As long as you are harming no one (including yourself) , what you do is your choice.

It's your beliefs, and your life. Live it the way that you want.

Blessed be

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