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Ritual "Cheat Sheet" Bracelet
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Keeping Christ in Xmas
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Iíve been reading quite a lot of essays about peopleís experiences when they ďcame out of the broom closetĒ. As I read through them, I found myself relating to these people and their experiences and fears. Some were blessed enough to have accepting friends and family and others werenít so fortunate.
Itís those essays that have prompted me to write of my own experience and tell everyone my fears as well. Iím not just doing this to jump on the bandwagon, Iím doing this to show people that they arenít alone, and that other people are and have done the same thing and have had the same fears and doubts.
My fears were that my parents and siblings wouldnít love me or accept me after I told them. I doubted my family and myself. I was afraid that if I told my friends they would shy away from me; believing the stories about Witches and evil spells.
I wasnít as old as some of you were Ė some of you were thirteen, fourteen, even in your twenties -- while I was an eleven-year-old girl. Youíd think that eleven-year-olds wouldnít have the maturity to be able to change religions and to research the religion that they are interested in, but I did. It wasnít a movie or a TV show that started the search for me as it was for some of you Ė not that there is anything wrong with that because there isnít.
Whenever I went to Church and sang the psalms and sat through the sermons I never felt right. I had an itch that I couldnít scratch Ė not that I wasnít able to but that I didnít know how. I knew about Wicca because my parents use to practice it when I was younger, coven and all (although they didnít know I knew that) . I had always felt a pull to it; a sort of calling I guess.
I acquired a book about Wicca and the practice of it. Silver Ravenwolfís Teen Witch was my first book.
Iíd been reading that for a few months when I decided that I should tell my parents. Thatís when I started having problems. When should I tell them? Should I even tell them? What will they do? How will I explain it? Those questions kept rolling around in my head when suddenly an idea came to me: Donít tell them until you do your research. I didnít know a lot about the history of Wicca; at this time all I knew was that it was a religion and that most Christians didnít like it.
I went to the library every day after school and researched the history of Wicca and I started compiling everything that I would say to my parents. This went on for a few weeks. When I felt that I had all that I could possibly research, I girded my loins and went to speak with my mother. Dad wasnít home at the moment because he was at work. My mother was always the easiest to talk to when I was younger.
I told her that I didnít feel right with Christianity and that I had found a religion that I was interested in. I started to tell her all that I learned, and then I presented her with the book that I bought. Her reaction wasnít what I thought it would have been. She nodded, flipped through the book a bit, and then handed it back to me with the warning of ďbe carefulĒ; and that was that.
The harder part was telling my dad. Heíd always been the more stubborn type and more set in his ways than my mother. I was closer to my mother than I was to my father back then. When I told him, he didnít react. He didnít yell, didnít bluster and go red in the face like I thought he would. It seemed like he accepted it. Over the years, we had our skirmishes over my religion and he said things about my religion that was extremely negative and hurtful, however; I always noted when he bought me another book. Iím not going to get into why he said those things because then Iíd be typing for a very long time explaining why. All that I will say is that my father had a problem while I was growing up and he usually wasnít in his right mind.
I didnít tell my friends; they just sort of found out. I didnít feel like I should tell them -- it shouldnít have mattered. It didnít to some and others drifted from me because of it. That hurt a little bit but I decided that if they couldnít accept me for who I was then they shouldnít be my friends.
I continued to study on my own for years. In middle school, I had a bit of trouble with people because they would see me wearing a pentacle or reading and they would pick on me. I ignored them and the problems stopped. In high school, I became friends with someone who was Pagan and who had a Pagan mother. We studied a bit together but didnít really do anything. Iím a still friend with her today and we now have a study group consisting of her, my sister, my best friend and me.
Speaking of my sister, telling her wasnít a problem. She had already started to drift from Christianity and is now currently studying Wicca, Hindu, Buddhism and Shamanism. I told my brother as soon as I thought he was old enough and he only had questions for me. My brother isnít a judgmental person and so I knew his questions were for curiosities sake.
Also, when I met my best friend (obviously I didnít know she would become my best friend and one day become my maid of honor) when we were in middle school. We talked but never really started to hang out until high school whereupon I learned that she had always wanted to learn about the Craft but never knew anyone. I gave her a book by Scott Cunningham and she seemed to like him and the idea of Wicca.
All of us just formed this group and havenít done anything as of yet except discuss it. Since Iím in Hays and theyíre back in Kansas City itíll be a little difficult to plan things. Iíll be going to a Croning ceremony soon with them for the one with the Pagan mother and I hope it will be interesting and insightful. Iíve never been to a ceremony of any kind. The only one who has is the one with the Pagan mother and even then she was very young.
Hopefully this will inspire others to ďcome outĒ and practice openly.
Location: Hays, Kansas
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