Witchvox Article

Author: Fayte Ravencraft
Posted: November 8th. 2009
Times Viewed: 622

Eleven years old is an early age to dedicate oneself to anything, let alone a Lord, Lady, and an entire Pantheon! I have always been a curious person by nature, and even at that young age, I saw infinite possibilities in my new "plaything", the Internet! I am thankful to this day that I came across Wicca, and I truly believe the Goddess guided me to this way, but that was the easy part.

You see, I have been a "rogue Witch" for the past two years. I believed but was unwilling to work to advance my spirituality. In fact, I was too lazy even to cast spells when I needed them. It was then that the Goddess sent me a wake-up call I will never forget.

I had been thinking a lot about life and death since the passing of my grandmother, and honestly wasn't sure of anything. Some cynical part of me said that there was nothing more to this life, and in the back of my mind, I was slowly beginning to accept that.

In my heart, I knew I didn't believe this. Somewhere deep in me, a part of me was calling, screaming that I release it from the chains of doubt by which it was bound. This part of me was Fayte Ravencraft, Wiccan practitioner and devout follower of the Lord and Lady, and I'd buried him years ago.

My parents were very unreceptive and consistently made fun of my faith. It eventually wore me down to the point that I began to claim the title "atheist".

It was a full moon that winter when I plopped down wearily on my bed, succumbing to the sheer exhaustion I so often felt in those days. I had just drifted off to sleep when I awoke to a bright light shining in through my window, that of the full moon. I had seen plenty of full moons in my time, and none had ever been remotely as bright! The silvery light bathed my entire room and sent my heart into double-time.

As I gazed in awe at the celestial scene before me, the light began to ripple and constrict until it was in a single beam in front of my window. I gasped, and the beam began to take form. Right before my eyes, the beam shaped and formed into the figure of a woman, who I knew to be the Great Mother. I had never literally seen anything "supernatural" in my life, though I had at one point believed.

As I realized the absolute love in my heart for the figure before me, and the calm and peace that radiated from her silver eyes, I fell to my knees at her feet. With a voice that chimed like bells, yet was firm as thunder, the Mother spoke to me.

"My child, " she said, " Your spirit has been crying out, and yet you ignore it. Free the Witch within, as it is your destiny, your Fayte. There are many gifts you have been given, and not to share them with the universe would be a waste. Rise, and remember, your place in the universe is among the wise ones. It is time to embrace it."

The light began to ripple once again, and the Mother's figure simply faded, leaving nothing but a dim glow of moonlight lighting the room.

I have revisited this in my mind so many times, and feel blessed to have had this experience. True, It could have been a dream- a powerful hallucination conjured up in the depths of my subconscious- but I know it isn't. I suppose only the Lady herself truly knows, but I am thankful for the lesson she taught me.

Finding faith is only half of the journey, keeping it is the true test of devotion. Unlike "The Wizard of Oz", there is no "yellow-brick road" for the modern Witch to follow, no beaten path upon which we can easily find our way. We are to be the pathfinders and explorers- those who are not afraid to step out into the unknown--- and face our destiny.

The road back to the Lord and Lady was a long one, but with their power and grace I made it back and now am a faithful Wiccan practitioner.

The biggest problem I ran into was the feeling that I was unworthy to walk the path of the wise, as I had abandoned it once before. It seemed unfair to me that the Lord and Lady should accept me back so readily when I had turned my back from them for so long. I felt much grief over this for many weeks.

Finally, through meditation and plenty of soul searching, I realized that the God and Goddess were there with me all the time, guiding and guarding me whether I was aware of it or not. Although I may have felt that I was out of their sight, they were always there just as much as ever and this led me to the realization that I have always been a child of the Lord and Lady, even before my birth, and thus never really went away at all. So it was with this epiphany that I was able to forgive myself and begin to heal the self-inflicted wounds to my soul.

Though it is not always a stroll down the yellow-brick road, there is truly no place like home to the soul.

I hope my experience help to enlighten you, or at least to affirm your faith. In regards to my vision of the Goddess, I don't claim to be any more special than anyone else, and I don't think that was what she meant by any means. You may think it was a dream, hallucination, or whatever. No matter which one it was, it set my feet in the right direction, so it is special to me.

Blessed Be,
Fayte Ravencraft

ABOUT...

Fayte Ravencraft

Location: Texarkana, Texas

Author's Profile: To learn more about Fayte Ravencraft - Click HERE

Other Listings: To view ALL of my listings: Click HERE

Email Fayte Ravencraft... (Yes! I have opted to receive invites to Pagan events, groups, and commercial sales)

Home - TWV Logos - Email US - Privacy

News and Information

Chapters: Pagan/Heathen Basics - Pagan BOOKS - Traditions, Paths & Religions - Popular Pagan Holidays - TV & Movies - Cats of the Craft - Festival Reviews - Festival Tips - White Pages (Resources) - Issues/Concerns - West Memphis 3 - Witch Hunts - Pagan Protection Tips - Healing Planet Earth

Your Voices: Adult Essays - Young Pagan Essays - Pagan Perspectives (On Hold) - WitchWars: Fire in the Craft - Gay Pagan - Pagan Parenting - Military - Pagan Passages

Pagan Music: Pagan Musicians - Bardic Circle at WitchVox - Free Music from TWV

Vox Central: About TWV - Wren: Words, Wrants and Wramblings - Guest Rants - Past Surveys - A Quest for Unity

Weekly Updates: Click HERE for an index of our weekly updates for the past 6 years

W.O.T.W. - World-Wide Networking

Your Town: A Link to YOUR Area Page (The largest listing of Witches, Pagans, Heathens and Wiccans on the Planet)

VoxLinks: The Pagan Web: 8,000 Listings

Your Witchvox Account: Log in Now - Create New Account - Request New Password - Log in Problems

Personal Listings: Pagan Clergy in Your Town - Adult Pagans - Young Pagans - Military Pagans

Events: Circles, Gatherings, Workshops & Festivals

Covens/Groups/Orgs: Local Groups Main Page

Other LOCAL Resources: Local Shops - Regional Sites - Local Notices - Global/National Notices - Local Skills & Services - Local Egroups - Political Freedom Fighters

Pagan Shopping: Online Shops Index - Original Crafters Sites - Auction Sites - Pagan Wholesalers - Pagan Local Shops

Web Site Content (including: text - graphics - html - look & feel)
Copyright 1997-2009 The Witches' Voice Inc. All rights reserved
Note: Authors & Artists retain the copyright for their work(s) on this website.
Unauthorized reproduction without prior permission is a violation of copyright laws.

Website structure, evolution and php coding by Fritz Jung on a Macintosh G5.

Any and all personal political opinions expressed in the public listing sections (including, but not restricted to, personals, events, groups, shops, Wrenâ€™s Nest, etc.) are solely those of the author(s) and do not reflect the opinion of The Witchesâ€™ Voice, Inc. TWV is a nonprofit, nonpartisan educational organization.

Sponsorship: Visit the Witches' Voice Sponsor Page for info on how you
can help support this Community Resource. Donations ARE Tax Deductible.
The Witches' Voice carries a 501(c)(3) certificate and a Federal Tax ID.

Mail Us: The Witches' Voice Inc., P.O. Box 341018, Tampa, Florida 33694-1018 U.S.A.

Witches, Pagans
of The World

Current Topic
Editorial Guide

NOTE: The essay on this page contains the writings and opinions of the listed author(s) and is not necessarily shared or endorsed by the Witches' Voice inc.

The Witches' Voice does not verify or attest to the historical accuracy contained in the content of this essay.

All WitchVox essays contain a valid email address, feel free to send your comments, thoughts or concerns directly to the listed author(s).